I feel I am at a crossroads. I want to decide on a path, but I'm unsure where to start.
Your first step is to find out who you are. You're not going to get anywhere until you know who you are. Self-knowledge is the start. What makes you passionate, and feel alive? What are the things that you love and that fulfill you? Once you have figured that out, you'll be able to begin to outline what your path might look like, ideally.
There are many ways to learn about who you are, but it takes a fair amount of self-exploring. You need to go deep into yourself, if you've never done that before. Go past all the labels and expectations people and society puts on us -- go deeper than that. Journaling is one way people have used that can be very effective as a means to learn about oneself. It’s often very surprising what comes out when we journal, honestly and uninhibitedly. Meditation is an excellent means of exploring one’s inner realms. If needed, professional counseling might be called for. But that’s the fundamental, essential step -- discover what you are, at your core. What are the fires that burn in you? Get clear on that, and shaping your energies to a specific path will be the next step. But nothing can go forward until you first learn who you are.
Here’s a good exercise to start you off: What did you most love doing when you were a kid?
Only to the extent that we expose ourselves over and over to annihilation can that which is indestructible in us be found.
- Pema Chodron