Sunday, October 31, 2010

Knotts Scary Farm

So last night I went to Knotts Scary Farm. It was so much fun. I do not know why I get scared so easily when I know that people are going to pop out from everywhere to scare me. I like the feeling of being scared but it is weird that it can continue to happen over and over again throughout the entire night.

I think that I almost peed my pants a couple of times. I think another important thing that makes Knotts fun is the company that goes with you. I had great company last night even though he left me by myself inside the maze. Ok actually he did not leave me but in some mazes he did stay behind me a little bit so I could get scared more. It was fun but geez some of those people really scared me good. A lot of them I didn't even see. Some were sitting on the floor in the dark and others were hiding in the corners. It was a great night. I love being scared and I had tons of fun.

Yesterday was such a long day and I was ready for bed around 4 in the afternoon, but I wanted to go to Knotts so bad. I ended up staying up and going anyways and by 10 I was ready to sleep for the night. The funny thing is I didn't actually get to sleep until 530 in the morning. How crazy is that? I was up for over 24 hours yesterday and I had a game yesterday morning against APU. We played so well against them and ended up winning 11-7. Yesterday was a day to remember. So much fun. Hopefully tonight will be just as fun.

Until my fingers meet the keys, Amber

Friday, October 29, 2010

It's a lifestyle

You can't have all of them. And by that I mean, all of the cross country races can't be absolutely amazing. Yesterday's race wasn't great but it wasn't bad either. It fell somewhere in the middle. I feel fine with it though, like I'm not upset. The course itself was slow. Very slow. We are moving onto so cal finals next week, and then the state meet. Two more races left in the season and then that's it. I'm not gonna lie, sometimes it does make you feel all worn out, all this running. Cross country starts way back in June 21st, and ends November 20th. So that's five months of running I do. I'm definitely looking forward to the end of it. But you know, I think this might be my last cross country season ever, because I've already used up my two years of eligibility. And I don't know what will happen with my education after this year. (I won't go into that right now but it's not as bad as you might think)

But yeah, I'm looking forward to having a break from running, cuz after that there is track, and that's another five months of running, so 10 out of the 12 months I'm running. This sport isn't a sport. It's a lifestyle.

As for this weekend! Woop! Woop! I will be visiting my friend up in Santa Barbara! I'm going with a few other people. And after that, I will be going to San Francisco for the rest of the weekend. So yes, the next two days will hold interesting things, nevertheless. I'm gonna keep safe.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010


Today is going perfect!

I woke up at 8 with a very fresh mind. I thought I had some homework to do before class but figured out that I already did it a few days ago!

I had two pieces of bread for breakfast and checked my email. I had a chat with a friend on Facebook for a while afterwards. Since I have been recently so addicted to playing Tetris, I played it as usual more than ten times and won like 8 times. What a great start of a day! That made me happy because I,for some reason, felt that today would go great!

I took a shower while my Ipod was being charged. I walked to school with a bottle of water since the weather was great even though it was kind of windy. Besides, exercising made me happy. It had been like two weeks since I walked to school. Thanks to the long distance, I got three big blisters on my feet. They were really hurting, so I went right away to the health center to get some band-aids. Despite it, I was happy!!! I couldn’t stop humming even when I was sticking the band-aids on my feet. Everything was going just perfect!

I had chicken tenders and a yogurt for lunch and went to class. Class was a bit boring, but it went great. After I had a 30 minutes break, I went to the Japanese class. It also went great. We played lots of games in class and all of the students had fun!

I got back home around 7 and had Flame Broiler for dinner! I put 4 little cups of hot sauce in my bowl. Then, as a dessert, I had 2 Oreos. All the food I had was very tasty. Delicious food always makes me feel happy!

I checked my Facebook and am taking a rest right now! I will play cards soon. Playing cards is my favorite thing to do when I am relaxing! The game is called “Spite and Malice.” Very cruel game. I always enjoy playing it though.

I don’t have homework for tomorrow. What a wonderful day today was! I will play Tetris a couple more times, read the bible and then go to bed. Yay! Today was awesome.

Hopefully tomorrow will go as spectacular as today.

After all, tomorrow is another day, Brianna

Monday, October 25, 2010

The week ahead

I'm a bit nervous about Thursday. We will be running conference finals and I've got some nerves. It's a bit different though, the nerves, because this time I'm expecting myself to do well and put my body through a break through, a break through performance unlike anything I've done before. Now I'm feeling this way because I've done my homework on the running part, and this week I'm taking good care of myself, eating healthy, no caffeine, sleeping, and not trying to stress myself.

But you know, despite all of that, I'm gonna go out there and run my bones all the way, no pressure, no pressure, just run my race and break through.

Now, on the more fun and relieving side, this weekend, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna be up on Santa Barbara with friends, and after that, San Francisco. I pray it all goes well with that too. That I keep safe. Safety.

And yah, pretty much.

Stay Tuned

Getting Close

My water polo season is going by way too quickly. I cannot believe that we only have around 3 or 4 weeks left of our season. This is my second year so I am trying to make the absolute most of everything that we are doing and everything that is going on around me.

I am so excited to see what will happen at the end of our season because I know we have the talent to go all the way to state. I am just sad to know that it is so close to an end. I do not want it to end. I love my teammates and I have so much fun with each and everyone of them.

One of the great things about water polo season is also that I have most Fridays and Saturdays off. It is not like I go out much because it is our season but it is nice to get rest on a Friday and Saturday night when work is usually the busiest. I really enjoy not having to be there on the weekends. We all know how busy Costco can be.

Anyways, I feel a flutter in my stomach every time I think about the next week of games coming up. I have an itch to play. I cannot wait to play my hardest and show the other team what I am made of. Personally, I feel like I have been playing so much better lately and I have been told by my coach that I have as well. So, now I just have to keep it up. I think that is the hardest part about it. But I am so ready to play. This weekend we had UCSB and Cal State Northridge at our tournament looking at everyone trying to recruit. I think I played well, but lets see what they have to say when I contact them this week about possibly playing for them next year. Cross your fingers.

Enjoy your week because I know I definitely will. No one can knock this smile off my face.

Until my fingers meet the keys, Amber

Sunday, October 24, 2010

What personality are you?

So what personality are you?

There is a very, very tall coconut tree and there are 4 animals; a Lion, a Chimpanzee, a Giraffe, and a Squirrel, who pass by.


They decide to compete to see who is the fastest at getting a banana off
the tree.

 Who do you guess will win?


Your answer will reflect your personality.

 So think carefully...

Try and answer within 5 seconds.


Got your answer?

 Now scroll down to see the analysis?

If your answer is…

Lion = you're dull.

Chimpanzee = you're a moron.

Giraffe = you're a complete idiot.

Squirrel = you're just hopelessly stupid.




You're obviously stressed and overworked.

 You should take some time off and relax!

Try again next year.

 You might do the same thing when you try it again haha.

I was hesitating between a giraffe and a squirrel since each giraffe has a long neck and squirrels move very fast. Then I chose a giraffe just because. Yes, I was a complete idiot and was about to be hopelessly stupid. Oh I would love to say I was too stressed and overworked to think clearly rather than I really was stupid! Agree with me, guys? :)

I thought I’d probably be able to have a lot of fun after the mid terms but then realized that lots of little tests were coming up afterwards. As an international student, it’s like three times harder to prepare for tests. It also takes a lot of time psh! But I thought I could handle them or something? I don’t know why.. Yesterday, I just fully relaxed by watching 2 episodes of Glee and some Korean reality shows and by taking a nap and listening to music. I really needed to study.. well I’ll go to the library soon to study to catch up all night. I hate to procrastinate but I do all the time till the last minute. Yesterday was like heaven but today’ll be like hell. Ughhh. Good luck to myself! Haha.

After all, tomorrow is another day, Brianna

Thursday, October 21, 2010


Everyday I wake up and I have a choice. I have the choice to lay in bed for the rest of the day or be productive and go to class, water polo, and most likely work afterwards. I am in control of my life and everything I choose to do with it.

My coach Gabriel Martinez has helped me in so many ways, to realize that life is all about choices and that our attitude is contagious when we make these choices. For example, yesterday we played Riverside College and we were losing by quite a bit because we were all in a slump. One of the girls was down and it affected the rest of us. She was having an off game big deal we should have been able to overcome it. Right?

The next thing we know one of our girls finally scores and we start doing one positive thing after the other. All it takes is one person to put aside all the bad energy and play their heart out in order to make positive things happen. It took that one girl to choose to have good energy and hard work to spread it through to the rest of us. I am grateful to have someone like that on our team that can pick us up and change the way we were feeling because of the other person.

I love that I can choose what I want to get out of life. I want to be in control of my future and how I act towards others. It has taken me plenty of years to have the attitude and perception on life that I do now, and I am thankful for everyone that I have/had in my life to help get me to this place. I try to stay positive when I can because I do not like negative energy around me.

There is a commercial on television that I absolutely love. It is showing a lady pulling a kid onto the curb to avoid getting hit by a car and someone happens to see her. Next, he helps someone pick up something that fall and someone else sees him, and it just continues on is this pattern. One good deed can go a long way. So, lets be nice to each other and be willing to help others in need. Make the choice to want to be a good person. I know I try to everyday.

Until my fingers meet the keys, Amber

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

I don't know what I say, I just have a way of saying it.

Adrenaline. Relaxation. Being comfortable and myself in front of at least 100 people. This is what the Fullerton Student poetry and what not readings was about.

And here I started the morning thinking I would just help to set up, when in the last minute, I decided to write something and just jump at it. So I went for it. And this is what I came up with. A very real conversation I carry often with Ivan, a friend, in which both of us discuss certain aspects of living, but as you will see, our subjectivity of life is quite different.

"I don't know what I say, I just have a way of saying it."
by angel mtz.

I sit, in front of Ivan.

He's eating something. Or drinking something.
Life passes away and I...snap my fingers.

"Ivan," I say, "What do you want in life?"

For a moment nothing.

"I want a Ferrari, or a Lamborghini," he says.

I sit, in front of Ivan, and I realize--I've asked the wrong question.
Life is wasting away and I...snap my fingers.

"I mean, what do you want OUT of life?"

Ivan thinks. He thinks thoughtfully and deeply. And I'm sure, he will give me the right answer this time.

"I want a mansion, a good looking wife, I definitely wanna be rich."

Forever. Foreverness.
For a moment nothing.
It all remains--quiet--slow.

I could ask a thousand questions, rephrase my thoughts a million ways.
I wouldn't get through to him.
And life is melting away...I snap my fingers.

"I mean, don't you wanna be free? Don't you wanna feel at peace, with God, with the universe?"

Ivan doesn't say anything, and then...

"Why do you even ask?" He says.

I sit, and I listen.

Life begins to flow...I snap my fingers.

"Because," I say, "Don't you know I've become a philosopher? I'm like Gandhi, or Jesus.

"You've become a douchebag," Ivan says, "You're trying to fill me up with your crap. I'm not gonna fall for it.

I laugh. And I realize Ivan is lost. Because he doesn't see there is more to human existence than just everything you think about. There is more than just our fake ephiphanies about our progress in this life.


Life is flowing faster and I...clap my hands.

"I will carry you kicking and screaming and in the end, you will thank me," I say.

Ivan doesn't think.

"Good luck with that, I'm never gonna fall for your crap."

"I know," I say, "But I'm never--I'm never gonna stop trying."

That was the piece I wrote in about 20 to 30 minutes just before the event started. You feel so empowered when you are up there on the podium. It was fantastic.

I very much enjoyed my day. And it is during these days I've lived to my fullest.

Monday, October 18, 2010


"In life, I've found that it's not necessarily important to be strong, but to feel strong."

Strenght. Today, I've felt this in my breathing, in the beat of my heart, in the rhythm my legs created during the morning work out and in the after feeling I was able to conceive from it, in my psych test. I have felt a strengh and it is divine, universal and my own. I've found myself now in this process of growth and progress. Everyday I'm free. Everyday I conceive a positive concept of who I'm, where I came from, and who I'm becoming. I have taken quite the philosophical perspective to kickstart my subconscious and conscious mind. I'm onto greater things, onto humble dreams, onto discovering my true potential and yet, still embrace the life of simplicity, down to my core, down to my most basic nature.

And with that on mind, yes, in today's work out I felt amazing. I felt complete. After I went to study for my psyc test and got a free coffee drink by just filling out this survey. The test itself I felt very confident about it. After that, well, after that I was able to come across that very dear special friend whom I always enjoy speaking with, she tells me of her life and I listen, and I mean, I really listen, and she opens up and I just think it's utterly amazing how truthful and soulful people can be when they talk about the stuff that really matters to them.

She had to go to class, I went to the cafeteria. A few other friends were there, and this whole time I'd been thinking of hot chocolate. Of course I've made my way right with the universe I think, because I did get another free drink, a hot chocolate my friend offered without me even having to say anything. How funny is that. I love it. This is what I mean by finding my balance with my life, with those around me, embracing those things I can and having the wisdom to let go of those I can't. And before you know it, it all starts to work, it falls into place and the next thing is you find yourself getting two free drinks within a few hours apart.

I'm going places, I'm doing things, I know it in my heart of hearts I will. Why?-Should you ask. Because I feel right, I feel at peace, I'm filled with such a truthful perception of life now. Because in life I've found, it's not necessarily important to be strong, but to feel strong.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Be positive!

This weekend’s going so great because all of my midterms were officially over and homework is not a lot :) I have got an email a few days ago and well, I’d love to share this email at this time. It actually touched and encouraged me so much. Ok here we go.

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, " If I could only see the world, I will marry you."

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything including her boyfriend. He asked her,’ Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?'

 The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him. Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine. ‘This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations. Life is a Gift.

Today before you say an unkind word, think of someone who can't speak. Before you complain about the taste of your food, think of someone who has nothing to eat. Before you complain about your husband or wife, think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion. Before you complain about life, think of someone who went too early to heaven. Before you complain about your children, think of someone who desires children but they’re barren. Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn’t clean or sweep, think of the people who are living in the streets

Before whining about the distance you drive, think of someone who walks the same distance with his or her feet. When you are tired and complain about your job, think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job. Before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another, remember that not one of us is without sin and we all answer to one MAKER. And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down, put a smile on your face and thank GOD you're alive and still around.

Life is a Gift.

Are you enjoying your life? Or complaining about it? Well, what we have and what we can do are definitely blessings. I always believe that one positive thought can change lots of other things to the better. If you were depressed today, tomorrow would be different! We should be thankful for what we have because not everyone can have what we have.

After all, tomorrow is another day, Brianna

longest week of my life!

This week has been by far the longest week of my life. It started on Sunday evening when I got off of work at 7pm. I came home from work and had to start on a nutrition project that was due the next day. I know it was my fault for waiting until the last moment to do it but I couldn't help it. I had been so busy the entire week and weekend before.

Monday-class, practice, studying, homework, and then I had to work. As you can see no time for a break.

Tuesday- practice in the morning, practice two hours after that, and then I have a 5 hour gap
into between practice and class. I decided that I didn't have a choice but that I had to use my time wisely, so I came home and took a test for my online class. I had to get it done because the close out date was that night. After I took the test I rushed back to school for my History of Rock class which always seem to drag on. It is not that it is boring or anything but by this time I am exhausted and it is hard for me to pay attention. Especially since I had already been up since 5:00 am.

Wednesday- I actually missed class on Wednesday morning because I was not feeling good at all. I couldn't get myself to get out of bed. I needed at least another hour of sleep. Once I finally got up I did some research for my 4 page paper that was due that night that I hadn't started. Then I rushed to practice. I was so ready to get in the water and swim, had my sunblock on already and my swimsuit too. When my coach got there he said that we were not going to get in the water because we had a fundraiser to do at 12pm so it would be pointless to get in for roughly an hour. We did some walk-through on the pool deck and then got set up for our fundraiser. From 11:45 to 2:30 I was running around the campus trying to pass out fliers and get follow students and some of the staff to come to our fundraiser. It was a challenge but we did ok. At 2:30pm I left my teammates and went to donate blood. This was the longest blood donation process ever! I didn't get out of there until almost 4:30 and I rushed over to the library to write my 4 page paper before class at 7pm. I finished the paper with about 12 minutes to spare. I was stressing out so much that it was hard to even begin to write it.

Thursday-morning practice, hung out with a friend that I hadn't seen since early July, afternoon practice, a lot of time working on homework for my online class because I had a midterm on Saturday, then of course work. :(

Friday-morning practice, then I spent 4 hours in the library doing the rest of my homework for my online class, (I didn't even finish all of it and it was do Saturday morning), rushed straight to work after that and didn't get off until after 10:30. I was so tired and ready to go home and get some sleep when I got invited to watch Jackass 3D. I had such a long stressful week and I needed something to get my mind off of school work for a minute. I went to the movie which didn't start until midnight basically. I got home around 2:10am and ended up studying a little while longer before going to sleep.

Saturday- I woke up at 6am studied and then met up with a classmate at school to study and do some more work before the midterm, took the midterm(I think I did great on it), then came home and slept for an hour before work. After work last night I came straight home and went to sleep.

Sunday- I suspect that today is going to be a long day at work, but I am definitely looking forward to coming home and going to sleep.

I am so glad this week is over! No deadlines for school this week either so I am good to go. I think my week felt even longer because we didn't have any games so we had nothing to look forward to in practice. We just swam sooooo much and practice hard for this coming week. Can't wait to catch up on some sleep this week.

Until my fingers meet the keys, Amber

Friday, October 15, 2010

So take it easy

It appears today was my last time running at Mt. SAC as part of a team. This course started since way back in my freshman year in high school and oh my god, look how fast time has gone by. Every year I found myself on that course, time after time, some were good and some were bad. I ought to say though that I'm proud of myself because out of all those times I ran it today was by far the best one.

Like I said, Coach B. gave us the option to run it or not. Most of the guys chose not to run it because they need a break, but I don't know, I just felt like I had to run it because something good awaited me. I thought about this concept, sometimes when I'm running I want to quit so badly, and what pisses me off the most, or better said, what empowers me the most, is that I never quit, not even when I'm given the option. Not now, not tomorrow, not ever. I'm never quitting.

So yes, on account of all that, I decided to at least run this race and take it as a work out, I decided to take "the pressure factor" off and what happened amazed me. I went in with a mentality of taking it easy and I found this place, this peaceful feeling that allowed me to move faster. The whole time I kept saying to myself, "Remember, the pressure factor is off." When I came through the finish line I couldn't believe it, I had broken my pr from the year before. That was pretty amazing. And here I was telling myself I was going to take it easy when I felt amazing.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Mid October

Mt. Sac Invite tomorrow. The sickest most insane cross country course in the United States. I have ran this countless times before so I'm extremely familiar with it. It is by far the hardest course ever, no joke, especially if running in like 90 degree whether at noon. I remember last year I ran it twice, the first time I died out, the second time I did much better.

Tomorrow however this race will be different. Coach Bevec gave us the option of running this race or not. She asked us to consider how our bodies felt, on account the course is brutal. Most of us agreed to run it, however, we will only take it as a work out. Meaning that we won't really race it so the pressure element is off. I can't express how relieved I'm to take the pressure off. For once, this race can be fun.

On other matters, I've spent quite some time hanging out with a certain friend, we get along really well on an almost philosophical level and we often talk about outlooks of life. It's fun just hanging out and planning things out, things that we want to do in the future.

At the moment I'm feeling, hmmm, I don't know. Quite unmoved. But I oughta feel moved. Excited about life.

I need something to kick in and get me in the mood.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Homework and tests are never ending!

Ok, here is a big difference in my college life that I have experienced between Korea and here in America. First, when I was in college in Korea, I never really opened my textbooks unless the midterms were near. I chilled with friends all the time and sometimes ditched class. But once the midterms were announced, I never got out of the library. I didn't even go to sleep for like four days because I had to catch up on all I had learned. Can you believe it? Four days! This was the most extremely insane time for me. I was almost literally sleep-walking and sleep-eating. When one of my friends and I were walking on campus, I heard her say, "Hey dude! Watch out! Oops, are you asleep? Hey! Hey! Wake up!!!" Well, I was about to be hit by a car. Yes, I was sleeping and walking at the same time. And I finally ended up falling asleep in the library and snored as loud as thunder, according to my friends. This happened like two years ago, but they still tease me sometimes.

Ok here we go, next, my college life here at Fullerton College. A very good thing here is that I haven't had such crazy days and I usually finish homework in time. However, I am normally stuck in the library more than three days a week to complete tons of homework and to study for never ending tests. I often go crazy because it's overwhelming and it's all in English! Another good thing though is that because I keep studying or at least doing homework, I don't easily forget what I have learned in class and digest it better than I used to in Korea! I can't imagine how hard it would be for the students who work and study.

I need to go back to studying Japanese for a test tomorrow. Ugh! Learning a new
language is not so easy, but always fun! Plus it seems real cooool :) Doesn't
it? Haha. Hope all of you do well on your tests and get good grades at the end
of this semester! This is what we strive for. Right? Go guys! Let's go back to

After all, tomorrow is another day, Brianna

Monday, October 11, 2010


So, the last couple of days I haven't been able to get my oldest brother off my mind. He is in prison for a something completely stupid. Anyways, I have been thinking about him a lot lately because my birthday was a little over a month ago and I usually at least receive a card from him saying, "happy birthday" or something. This year I didn't get anything. I know that he has called a few times and that he is doing ok, but I just cannot help but wonder why there was no card. It may sound selfish by me saying that but it is my way to make sure that he is ok.

A little history about my brother's and my relationship is that we don't always get along. Growing up it was great. I would always be with my brothers hanging out, play fighting, or just laughing at each other all night long. When I was about 12 years old he went to prison for the first time because he took the rat for something that someone else had done. Since then things have changed drastically. Not only between my brother and me but throughout our entire family.

I did not talk to my brother for a very long time because of some things he had done to my family, such as; selfish acts for money, stealing, and verbal abuse. He is a good brother and always took care of me when I needed him but I was mad at how my family fell apart because of the selfish choices he had made. It is still hard for me to talk to him or write to him. I think just in this past month I have written over 11 letters to him, yet I haven't sent one out. I just cannot get myself to send them or I lose them on purpose so I don't have to.

I think that I am going to write him sometime this week and send it out... Maybe I will just send him pictures of his kids and see if he responds back to me. I am not sure what will happen or if I will even send anything. I will try though.

Until my fingers meet the keys, Amber

Sunday, October 10, 2010

so cal preview

Good things do still exist, in the most satisfying-fulfilling way. I'm referring to yesterday's race in San Diego. It is my first time traveling down there, it's quite nice. We raced at this park that's pretty much next to the ocean. Everything is near the ocean in so cal, but this one, was literally right next to the water.

I had tried not to worry so much about the race, so I came to the conclusion that I should just go out there and run my own race. It worked to my advantage. I saw Johnny and Javier several times, at one point they were both ahead of me, but it was at the last mile when something happened, I started to pick it up all through out, I passed Johnny, and then I kept picking it up. I was at the final 300 meters and legs broke loose and I was pushing such a strong pace, this was my kick, speeding up, step by step, catching guy after guy, like poom! And then. OMG. I passed Javier within the last 10 meters. I was pumping with Adrenaline.

Once at the chute, I gave Javier a hug.

Overall I'm very pleased with my results. I managed to be number 3 on the team but what really makes me proud is that I never once slowed down during the race, I always kept pushing it.

By the way, Javier and Johnny are my old high school teammates. They now run for OCC. We had a picture together after everything.

That's pretty much everything that happened yesterday.

I have work today, and speaking of that, I was called in yesterday by one of the managers, Octavio, but I told him I was in SD and I couldn't go. He said it was alright, and then he wished me good luck. I like that manager.

Friday, October 8, 2010

Hello :)

Helloooooo everyone,
I finally got a chance to connect with you! Yay how great it is!! I am very excited to be here and your comments are always welcome, so don't hesitate to discuss anything with me:)
Let me introduce myself since it is my first time blogging. I am an international student from South Korea. I came to America last February so its been a year and a half since.
Man, time is going so fast!

I am a full time student here at FC and don't work since I am holding a F1 visa as a foreigner. I am majoring in communications and thinking of doing TV producing as my career in the future.

Well, I think I am pretty easy to get along with. I am an outgoing person and love being with people. My friends and family always tell me that I am too loud. Then, I talk back to them saying "This is my gene! I was born with a loud voice! I can't help it." (with the louder voice *wink*)

I am a Christian and love going to church. I am participating in two bible studies on Thursdays and Fridays. Friday is my favorite day among weekdays because I can have a bit of relaxation from all the school work, go to the bible study and the weekend is following.

I love playing and watching sports. I especially love soccer and badminton.
Am I too "Asian" or what? Haha, the reason I am saying this is because I know most Americans love football and tennis more than soccer and badminton. I have always wanted to learn how to watch football games though. When I first watched a super bowl game with American people around, I was like "why are they so crazy about this? What is going on? What do quarterbacks do? I have no idea, but I don't want to look stupid!" without saying any words. So I pretend to know what it is all about. This was an embarrassing experience. I am still eager to know about football! :P I love being here in CA ! I love the people here and am enjoying my life! (I hate transportation though!!!)
Hope you are enjoying your lives too!

After all, tomorrow is another day, Brianna

Thursday, October 7, 2010

To say anything else

Hmmm.....I forgot to do my paper for my media aesthetics class today. Oops! I will do it tomorrow morning.

The weeks has pretty much slipped through my fingers, I think in a good way though. It's just gone fast, it's one of those school weeks that go by fast.

The one thing I can truly remember about this week is reconnecting with that certain someone from high school. For over a year I had not had a conversation with her, at least not face to face. She passed by while I was sitting with Kyle, a friend of mine. I called out her name and she said hello, she asked to sit with us and I said of course. After Kyle left we started talking of so many things, like what has happened and mostly the things that have changed. While conversing with her I realized how much I have missed this person, I have missed the friend in her, the soul in her, the funny person in her, but mostly, just her as she is. She really opened up to me, I did too, but I think she opened up more. So I just listened, and I mean, I really listened. I gave her my complete attention. She has not changed at all, she has matured of course, but she's still jolly and good hearted. I'm really glad I was able to sit there and converse with her. She has no idea how much it relieved me to just know she's still here and that somehow I'm still part of her life in a way. I wish I could've had more time to talk with her but I didn't, hence having to work.

And work, oh God. So this manager, which I'm starting to think we're not really on the same vibe, called my attention about three times over a few tiny things that were really unsignificant. And it's not so much that he's telling me how to do it or how I can improve, but the way he comes off and the tone of his voice, it's sounds like he's the most righteous king of the goddamn fish taco. No buddy, you are not the the king, and it's just a fast food Restaurant. And I mean, this is what the guy tells me on some of his advice: "Assume all customers are idiots." I don't think he's gonna get anywhere in life with that mentality, and he says I'm the rookie. I think not.

I love the cooks though, this cook called me over and he said not to worry, to just agree with him and be like "oh yeah yeah for sure" but to not mind it. He kinda made it sound like the manager was an asshole sometimes but to not get all down on myself for it. I really liked that and deep down I thank that cook for telling me that because I was feeling a bit humiliated and down. The cooks are awesome, this other cook always keeps asking me if I already ate, he's funny.

As for my running today I didn't feel so good, my legs felt sore and out of sync, but like I said, I'm thankful to have legs, just like I'm thankful to enjoy other things.

You know, tomorrow will be a great day and I will be there for it.

Stay Tuned

Black eye...

During practice today I received a nice black eye from one of my teammates. We were in the middle of a scrimmage when she got up and shot the ball. As I attempted to block her shot, she released and hit me right in the left eye with her heavy wrist. This isn't the first time she has hit someone in the head/face. When she shoots her hand just happens to hit people. Accident or on purpose we will never know.

So, the funny thing about me having a black eye today is that on Tuesday I too hit someone in the eye. I really did not mean to hit her in the eye and I do not know how many times I apologized to her, unlike some other nameless people. Anyways, I poked her in the eye so hard when I was spinning around that it got swollen immediately! Everyone thought it was going to be a black eye for sure. She actually just laughed it off and said, "thanks, I always wanted a black eye."

The thing that was funny about my black eye today was that my teammate that I poked was mad at me because hers didn't turn into a black eye and mine did almost instantly. She said that next time I need to man up and finish the job. That if I am going to hurt her like I did by poking her in the eye, I better make it worth it and give her a black eye.

She made me feel a lot better by telling me that because I know she wasn't mad at me for hurting her on accident, but it was funny when she told me next time I better finish the job. It is funny to think how water polo players love bruises and scratches and black eyes to tell the story about how it happened, but other people hate to have such ugly marks on their bodies. We look at them as battle wounds that have a tremendous meaning behind them and others look at them as disgusting. To each their own I guess. But for me I will continue to get battle wounds and tell all about them.

Until my fingers meet the keys, Amber

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

The Path to Somewhere...

Everyday I take the same freeway to school and back to my house, and the same freeway to work and then back home...

I cannot help but wonder that the person in the car next to me does the same thing. But how can I be sure? Maybe the person in the blue Honda CRV is on a journey. Maybe she is on the path to finding herself. How would I know that she takes the same freeway everyday? I wouldn't!

Every time I pass a car on one of these freeways, I take daily, I can't help but look through their window and wonder what they got going on for that day. Some ladies are doing their make-up(maybe running late for work), some talking on the phone(maybe to a boyfriend/girlfriend), some men banging their head to the radio, and yet I cannot seem to figure out what path they are taking. Sometimes I am tempted to completely disregard the path that I am on just to see the path that someone else is on.

Another thing I can't help but to wonder is, is the person next to me even wearing pants? How would anyone know if you are wearing pants or not? Sometimes it can get extremely hot and your a/c might not work so you take off your pants and roll down the window. I know it might be too much information but I have done that before. But that is because I was still in my swim suit. Some people may like to do it just because. Who are we to judge?

The point I am trying to make is everyday we go on a "path to somewhere", but where is that path really leading us? How do we know when we will actually reach our final destination to this particular path? It seems to me that everyday is a new journey and what we do when we get to the end is our choice. Is it the end of the journey or is it just the beginning of a new journey?

Keep your path to somewhere going everyday and hopefully you will find yourself in the process....

Until my fingers meet the keys, Amber

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Where is my mind?

Starting Friday, it has been a hell of a long weekend.

My xc meet did not go well as expected, my body was somehow just shut down during the race, that and my mind too. That has to be right up there with one of my terrible performances in running. I felt disappointment and regret.

So yes, the rest of my Friday after the meet I spent wallowing in emotional pain.

Saturday however, while watching The Shawshank Redemption, I got called from work, they wanted me to go in and so I did. That was a long day.

Today as well, Sunday, work was a hell of a long day. It was only seven hours but oh.
So yes, this weekend has left me completely exhausted, I'm very tired and my legs feel it. I'm mentally tired as well. I feel I'm a wreck at the moment.

Tomorrow is a school day, I'm really not looking forward to the workout in the morning.

BTW. I really don't like the way one of my managers just calls me "Buddy" because I'm not hearing "Buddy," I'm hearing "you damn rookie." But he started calling me "Bud" which I supposed is better. I guess sooner or later he will call me by my name. I just have to work my way up that is.

Stay Tuned


This has been the longest weekend ever. I had a tournament in San Luis Obispo which was a lot of fun. I had the best time with my team and getting to know them better, but man am I exhausted. It was such a long drive up there and back. It took us a little more than 4 hours to get there and pretty much the same amount of time to get back.

On Saturday we could have left after our first game if we knew the weather was going to act up. We were only six minutes in to the first quarter when it started to lightening and thunder. As soon as that happened the officials immediately ended the game. We ended up getting home earlier than we would have if we would have finished the game; however, we still did not get home until around midnight.

It was rough getting home so late and then having to get up early and be at work at 9am. I know I was not the only one on my team that had to work at 9am this morning and I know they feel my pain. Not only did I have to work but boy was it busy today. I work at Costco and we have coupons going on right now for the next week or so and people go absolutely crazy for the coupons. Which made it worse was I had to work 8 hours today in the craziness. It is ok though because at Costco we get paid time and a half on Sundays.

I am so ready for bed and it is only a little after 8pm. I wish I could just go to sleep right now but I cannot because I have homework to do that I was not able to do over the weekend because our hotel did not have cable. Oh well, time to take some responsibility and get my stuff done as quickly as possible so I could get some sleep. I have a big exciting week ahead of me.

Until my fingers meet the keys, Amber

Saturday, October 2, 2010

The Meet and Greet

So I never really know how to start off these informal blogs. Do I state my name, age, city of birth? Or do i begin by saying, "Hi there, I am really interesting," while trying to really hope that the rest of the blog is not boring.

Well let me start of by saying that my name is Samantha and I am a college student, a Fullerton College student to be exact. I should inform you readers that since I am on the Cross Country team here at school, some percentage of the statements I make will be about running...although I will try and not make it all of my focus, as to give you some depth into my life as a Fullerton College student, but to definitely make it known that yes, I do run in 100 degree weather and occasionally get chafing-what? I am a runner and that's what happens.

Lets see, how do i begin my day? Well since this is the first time we are meeting I should give a little synopsis about my weekly schedule. I will be short and sweet. I begin practice everyday at 7 am-which means i get an awesome parking spot (yes!)-and have photography 101 and English 103 on Monday's and Wednesdays. Then on Tuesday's and Thursday's it becomes a bit tricky. On Tuesdays, keep in mind that I have running practice when roosters awake, I have Oceanography, work, then a History night class till 10pm . But the best part of Thursday's is that since my History class is only on Tuesday's night, that leaves me with Oceanography and that's it! Well partially that's it because sometimes i have work after and it tends to be an 8 hour shift. And on Friday I do not have class, thank goodness! But hold it! I do have races, which means my weekend technically doesn't start until either Saturday if I do not have a race or Sunday-high five for one day weekend! Other than that, I survive my time consuming schedule and have time for certain events, family, friends, and a bit of me time (shopping time).

For instance, I am super excited for my Photography assignment that is due in 2 weeks-a candid photo assignment! Finally! I can take a picture of someone picking their nose and them not even realize that, "ya! I gotcha buddy! On film!" How awesome is that!? Actually I really like my Photography class. I was a fan of taking pictures before but know knowing all the mechanics of a camera and now "seeing the vision" rather than just snapping a shot just to get to the end, really makes a difference to the way I take pictures now.

I understand that this Meet and Greet of ours was just the beginning to many dates we will be having over the next few months, but I promise I will be as interested in your questions as I hope you are in mine. I do have to tell you that it may seem I am a talkative person-not one of those annoying subway cell phone talkers-but one that is just full of life and can't wait to see where her future takes her..Hopefully all around the world....Oh gosh that's a whole other date! Like Dinner and a Movie...not a Keanu Reeves movie but a Meryl Streep meets George Clooney Marathon!

So until our next date, Samantha